i need to learn how to articulate and speak louder.

i need to write two poems.
one is nonsensical
and the other is musical

i need to finish up on lab four
and start on lab five or
I will be screwed.

i must pay housing fees
make changes to summer classes
pay the contract fees

but for now, i think i am going to go eat a bowl of chocolate mint ice cream with chips ahoys crumbs at my friend's place.

if you want to live high, live high

sometimes i feel like my thoughts are clouded
[update] frazzle is fickle.

alright
so im set on having two majors and one minor. i already planned out my class schedules for the next four years. I plan on having one summer off to study abroad. wanna join in, wenditz? this means i will graduate in spring 2011.
but i have not figured out my career choice.
i always have this image that I will be working amongst the great outdoor, in the sequoia park. but then i will miss the city life, well, actually, i will miss my small city and the Chinese food. and then i think about my parents and my family and how much of the family gatherings i will miss.

i remember a few years back in high school, i used to think that i will only go to college for me and find a job for me so i can be happy for me. but now, i am deeply confused, i feel being tugged a little to the idea of me working in a stuffy office for some lame company or business (which is my mother's goal in life for me. Ha). note: i am currently working in a stuffy office.
you see, my mom immigrated here so her children can get into a fine institution, and get a high paying job. my mom left her whole family behind to go to the United States with my dad and his side of the family. i could not think of another scenario to feel completely alone and lost. my mom sacrificed a lot for me and my brother and i fully thank her for giving me life. so return, i feel that the least i can do is live to her expectation. however, recently, my mother told me to do what i find enjoyable and the rest is history (that is what i love about her, her understanding my struggle and her becoming aware of the American culture).

so i am my mom's American dream and i choose to not let her down.

clarity. i like that word. i think i just had a moment of clarity. my mom feels a tad worry since i really do not know what to do in life. but that is the beauty of it; i am unsettled, i can go many ways, i can

dear wenditz

I really miss chinese food.
I dropped my math class! so hooray for me
I have a crap load of assignments
I have not been eating so well lately
I miss our trivial, daily chats
cant wait for summer
cant wait to see my new apartment
and new roomies

alright, now its mine turn to characterize myself
I'm a funny gal. I found out that I am one ever since a then second grade friend told me so. I've never really said it myself out loud because I am modest, or so I think. People I've met told me that I have a great sense of humor and I consider myself to be very fortunate to have such a valuable quality. A friend of mine once told me that she met a person who tried to be funny, but failed deeply at it. I was completely shocked by the fact that a person lacks a sense of humor. That's just ridiculous.
I think one of the reason why I am a funny person is that I needed to find a way to escape my life with my parents and all. Another is that shared laughter is soo shweet.

I tend to overanalyze my facial features and structures recently. I feel ugly. I hate scrutinizing my face but I cannot help it. I blame it on my former roommate and my mother for making me think about my own looks. But on other days, I feel beautiful and fantastic. Hopefully I'll blossom wenditz.

that's it for now.
too much thinking for one day

shambles

i like saying that word.

anywho my life sucks right now. hw constantly rules my life and i have little time to work =[
im not used to the lab environment. everything is sooo fucken chaotic.
i must adjust. i must bend or i will snap in half. =[
house meeting very soon
math quiz -->
poem
read