this is my new outlet =]

ONE MORE THING BEFORE I STFU,

a person i know told me that he understands what im going through... i dont want to reveal too much of his info but his sister is handicapped ever since she was born?.

first of all, i feel for him. must suck.

second of all, he dealt with this his whole life. i on the other hand am dealing with my mother's condition NOW!

third, now dont get me wrong, but his sis is handicapped, NOT ONE OF HIS PARENTS, who is responsible for the bill payments of the house, the utilities, the food, and etc. MY MOTHER WAS THE FUCKEN BREADWINNER OF MY FUCKEN HOUSEhold so

so once again, when he said he understands what im going through, no fucken way. his sister and my mother both played different roles in the family structure. how could he possibly understand? maybe he feels frustrated with his sister from time to time? well i dont feel the same towards my mother.

it's funny to think of myself as heart broken, not over a dickhead, but over my mother. i mean, that's some serious heart-aching. i dont think i can really get over this. this is my mother for god's sake, not some person i had a thing or two with and can be tossed over at some point.

done and so done.