speechless - washington

perhaps i overreacted on my last blog

I was backing up my laptop and i looked over the photos of me and my friend and i remember i had a blast with her during those picturing taking days. but im still aware of what happened the other day. i still dont know why she didnt call us up one by one and tell us she was here. guess i'll never know.

its hot. my bro and i plugged in the (un)portable a/c and now our living room is more livable. we need to unscrew the heater, its bringing the heat into the house. im really excited in moving into a new house. i think by next month we'll start hunting down houses. i hope this doesnt ruin my fin aid. i'll have to ask.

so i have 17 more classes i need to pass. and study abroad. and internship. yessum. happyface.

eminem - beautiful

so i've watched more movies. harry potter goblet of fire, 500 days of summer, julie and julia, and father of the bride ( yeah, i finally have the movie!!).

so a couple of days ago, after midnight-ish, i thought my plan was crystal clear - to metrolink my way down to downtown LA to see my dear friend right before she leaves and then afterward, will return back to irvina. i did make it to the train station. i did board it.but i had this awful gut feeling that I shouldn't have gone - that this plan is gonna invisibily blow up in my face, and i was right.

Friend, if you are reading this, i'm sorry again to have put you AND especially myself through this insane meet up. I havent heard nor seen you all summer, and I crazy missed you. This is what happens when my heart grows fonder, is that even a word?

Upon arrival and impatiently waiting for her arrival, and fidgeting my phone, I became restless and angry. I was not upset that she was late, actually, I was a little, but the fact that I have blinded myself and her giving me, shall i say illusion, to what we have, but the proper phrase is: what we used to have.

Referencing 500 days of summer, I am the hopeless loverboy, and she is the so called heartbreaker. It has become so damn clear to me yesterday - I love her more than she does to me, or something along that line. I've been caught up with my liking to her joyful spontaneity and lame yet witty charm, that I don't see how she sees me, now. I know, i know, she is just a friend, but knowing me, I value long-term relationship, so this was a big one to me.

Let me break it out to you: If I was really her friend, I would've been updated about her whereabouts, by her, not through a mutual friend (its not that hard to facebook). If I was really her friend, she wouldn't leave me hanging (again, facebook).

ANd all this time, boy do I feel foolish. All these pieces are adding up. haha, im such a genius in solving this puzzle.

I don't regret ever meeting her. She was a huge part of my high school days. so I wish her the best in whatever she pleases. It's hard to let go, but I'm doing it and living my life to my wishes.

If you're curious if we did actually meet up, we did; 15 minutes or so. I appreciate her going along with the plan, I just wish she wasn't so damn nice, its pretty inconsiderate, you know? haha. SO yesh, my farewell to her was the end of my little fantasy, of what little we have left, of it.

Riding back to Irvina, I have this NEW profound love for the friends I have acquire, for the ones I still have around - and I have to go through this much trouble to realize what I have. Now this I don't regret. Good night.

btw, my right jaw area is always twitching up, it kinda hurts. the freaken removal of my wisdom teeth triggered this slight pain. my mother told me that lately, she hears me grinding my teeth!! insane!!

keys found

they were in my OTHER bag
i forgot i have another bag besides that blood colored one

SO went to the dentist
got my stitches remove
i can eat now
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i really wanted to go to washington
for the longest time
i also want to drink old tire up north
whose up for grabs

jonas-ing

hey, i like the song. its cute, no?

okay so im freaking out cuz i cannot seem to find my CAR KEYS!!!
the last time i drove was into the drive way of my house. i thought i left it at my 'desk' of junk but i cant find it anywhere in the mess. maybe my mom has a hold on it? idk. she wouldve told me ahead of time? i got my wisdom teeth yanked outta me on sunday, so i havent driven for the past 3 days. it seems like the days has blurred. sad huh?

im really worried, i cant find the keys. must tell mommy.

I SAW IT!

I saw a streak of fast light!!!!
woohooooooooooooooooooooooooo
now i must wake up at 4 am to see it again =]

stuck at home: watching movies

i watched these movies through video cassette/youtube =]
i was supposed to watch ET tonight but i will push it back until manana cuz im currently watching mannequin 2
i remember watching the movie 'mannequin' when i was younger
so re-watching it brings back good memories =]
i've been wal-marting online - i wanna buy all kind of movies!!! i havent yet cuz i feel like i have to control my spending ways
buuuuut watching them do make me happy =]

also, i havent bought these ae shorts, sigh, they've been bag listed for days now!! what shall i do!!
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so im also done reading with the julia butterfly hill book
my cheeks have de-swollen by 6% now

my cheeks!!!

orangutan cheeks!!
i have to go back to my dentist to remove the stitches
i cant even see the stitches in my mouth cuz my poofy cheeks are in the way, man

saturday: DC, sushi rama, brugger

That's right. A DC coin. I just found out today. You see, my mother collects them. She even has her own booklet that holds all the coins individually. She told me that the booklet has fifty coin spots. So she asked me if DC is also a state. and its a no. but the coin looks cool.

I went to gin-sushi for dinner - there's this calif roll with lobster bits gravy that smothered the roll - i felt smothered after one bite. its at pasadena, its worth the money.

i signed up for the brugg literacy prgm to teach others engrish since i dont have summer school anymore =]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]]