a very lazy sunday

slept at 10 pm
and i finally and completely woke up at 12:20 am today
my eyes were bugged out
practice on my colloquial cantonese

my bro and i attempted to make mini steaky honboubaau
and i thought i broke the blender, the smoothie was seedy

but i'ved hulu
and uploaded pic on fb

class registration is manana
still unsure

to do: art hist ppr

chill monday

steven sharp nelson. cello man. homeward bound. look him up.

so i've been watching tv shows online all night =]]]

i hope to wake up early in the morning to do my actual work.

i want to take ess senior thesis and write more about hydrothermal vents. im excited for that. my registration window opens next week.

this is gonna be a long one

I thought I take this opportunity to write
so today
I am disappointed in myself; I did not study late into the night so I can get a fricken C+ on my atmosphere midterm
but what's done is done
I should not solely focus on my falling short because I accomplished so much today; I got my terrestrial hw and 114 lab done.
SO now, I just have to stay on top

I went to pilates, it was a tremendous workout, and I enjoyed it. I am thinking to do more pilate workout in my apt and not singly rely on my paid gym class to actually get a workout. My arms will definitely be sore by 2mrw =]

I was looking forward to hang out with my friends after pilates because I haven't seen them all together less than a week ago, but they went ahead w/o me. I was sad that they left me out, but I did not tell them to wait up for me, I told them that I'll call after pilates to check where they were at. So, no one is at fault here. The thing that suprised me was that Jerome was with them; I am nonetheless happy for him and for us. I wish I hung out with them, but there is nothing wrong just hanging out by myself, to have some down time and of course, to catch up on myself, meaning I am watching online tv shows. i am best at what i dobedo
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My uncle is coming back 2mrw and I am excited to see him this weekend, which is mother's day!! I am hoping I can go to costco soon and buy one of their beautiful flowers for mi momma. I am still deciding where to celebrate the event. I am also excited to see my friend(s), even if we have to ride the bus =] I havent been bussing for a while.

so earlier, I skimmed through my blog and I was either ranting about frazzle or my parents. I am afraid that I have to go see a shrink to "talk it out" and to confront my anger/fears to them, because right now, I do not want to. I must admit I do think about it sometimes but I rather right now to let the emotions simmer. However, I do want to say: Despite my flare against their attitude, I do not hate them. I just hate what happened between us; my parents and I; my friend and I.
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back to today
i smelled a smelly, BO, raunchy smell professor, SO GROSS
and i like wearing my small bra
and i want to get a subscription of glamour for this year
and i like reading newsweek
found out that christian science monitor is not really a christianized periodical
and i like taylor swift.

you belong to me betch

christmas list

booble's voice sure is soothing to thee ear

must see:
nacho
lord of the rings
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mar
gilma and her baby
dee =]
ashley
johana
daisy and jennypoo
jennie cheung


i feel awaken
i took my uncle's car
and drove all the way to another destination
to my friend's house actually
in commerce
with charlene's aid
it was sooo thrilling

darn
i am not sleeping at normal times
again
i broke my almost one week of sleeping no later than 12 am streak
booooooooooooo

almost christmas

exciting news: I PASSED PHYSICS
non-exciting news: i still do not know my grade for data analysis
i hate that class, i hate walking to that class, i hate using the computer in the computer lab, i hate listening to my professor, but i do not hate looking for/at hot tamales. that's right wendy, hot tamales.

so lately, i have gotten lazy. i rarely do walk/bus out to anywhere. also, i do not keep in shape. it seems as if i lost my compassion for local adventures.

today i saw my newborn baby niece. she's a looker. she's so fat and fat. yes i know, i said fat twice. and she yawns A LOT. so cute.

fall

What a tough quarter
I kept telling myself I cold have done better
This quarter
Any quarter really
Always criticizing myself, testing myself, pushing myself
And this quarter I really have out done it

I am a simple girl
I like consistency
I like to youtube
I like to facebook and aim
I like to catch up on TV shows by watching it online
I like to listen to music
Happy songs when I am happy;
Sad songs when I feel sad
Itis what gets me by.

Those are what come first
And studying comes later
Wishing to not lag on my studies is futile
Ive done it over a million times
And it only jerks my nerves with more and more force
Itis probably because of my confidence
Overly too confident that I will get the job done
I always have
Even though itis not my best work
Itis still something

I know I can do more
I can make it more
But I donot
Because I usually settle

So here I am again
Finding fault
Because itis so easy
To be hard on myself
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I am pretty sure I failed my physics class this qtr
nevertheless
I am still breathing
And I am still catching up on sleep
I am excited for this winter break
I want to go travel and be productive
outside academia